THE STORY

Hello everybody!
It has been a long time since I have blogged.  Once you go a little while without doing it, it is kind of hard to get motivated to get back into the swing of things.

My aunt Taunie got me motivated to get back into the swing of things.

THE STORY:
October 18 I woke up feeling really pathetic and sick. I call my mom reallll early in the morning and   was panicking a bit. She told me to go to the health center on campus. I called and made an appointment for after my classes that day (12:30). Big mistake waiting so long. I started throwing up at 10. I somehow made it to my appt and said I was going to throw up on the nurse' shoes. That whipped her into a frenzy. The doctor tried touching my tummy but I pushed him away. So, I got poked a few times and then they finally found my veins. Normal white cell count is 9 or 10 thousand. Mine was 16 thousand... So, they drove me to the surgeon's office (Dr. Dwayne Hansen is the best surgeon in Rexburg, I fully recommend him!) He looked at me and decided we needed to have emergency surgery. I didn't have a car and I also wasn't really in any condition to drive so his son drove me to the hospital. This was about 3:30 and I was SO ready for pain medicine as well as anti-nausea medicine.... I wasn't exactly the pleasurable person at that time of day. They gave me drugs around 4:30 and I don't remember too much after that. I had surgery that night around 6 pm to remove my appendix. The overall hospital experience was not bad at all. Everyone was friendly and I was taken care of very well. 
I didn't tell very many people that I had to go to the hospital. Partly because I hate being the center of attention and it all happened so fast. But I did tell my roommate so she wouldn't worry when I didn't come home that night. 


So, I had some surprise mixed in with my grogginess when the nurse told me I had a herd of people in my room waiting to see me. Turns out they had been waiting for hours to see how I was doing. THAT is how freakin' awesome my roommates are. And, they bought me beautiful yellow flowers along with chocolate. And they drew distracting pictures on my whiteboard. (sure the nurses loved me haha)
Along with my roommates were a few friends from the ward and my home teachers. Bless them, they met me for the first time in the hospital bed all pasty white and drooling from the medicine. AND they still talk to me!

After everyone left, the night time nurse hooked me up with this gigantour tv that had netflix AND hulu plus AND xbox. It almost made up for my neighbor screaming like a banshee all.night.long.

After drinking my weight in broth and grape juice, I was stoked when Dr. Hansen took me off the clear liquid diet the next day. My aunt Taunie and cousin Linzie strolled in while I was watching Warrior with my sweetest friend ever, Tori. (She hooked me up with the good stuff: chocolate ice cream). They hung out and kept me company while my mom drove down from Spokane.  When my mom showed up she dealt with all the paperwork. So glad. ( Even though I am almost 21, I do not feel old enough to fill out hospital papers for myself.)

Before we left the hospital, Dr. Hansen told us about a large cyst they found on my ovary while they were digging around in there. He cut off a wall and drained 1.5 liters of liquid. Grossssss. The cyst shrank down after he cut it, but he sent a sample to the pathologist just in case. Good thing he did too. Something is wrong with me.

We do not know if it is cancer yet. This week I have gone through some testing, and I am doing some more tomorrow. We should know next Monday.


Like most people would be, I am scared of what the future holds for me in the next six months. Even if I don't have cancer, I still need to be treated for something. However, I know that everything will be okay in the end. In the last week I have prayed harder than probably any other time in my life. I have a great support system which includes my immediate as well as extended family and my amazing friends here in Rexburg.



things i am grateful for :]

• my braces are off!!! 
• my mom brought my snowboarding jacket with her. after all, I am living in Rexburrrrrrrg.
• my roommates- they are my family for right now
• awesome home teachers
• excellent doctors 
• modern medicine and technology
• my comfy bed and pillows- i have spent some serious time on both of these
• the girls in my Ed Psychology class 
• my body is healing rather well from my appendectomy 
• Hot showers. probably my favorite part of the day
• my hair is growing out... i know it's shallow but i am so excited

Life begins at your comfort zone

So... this pretty much sums up me right now.

I love reading- it basically my most favoritest thing in the world. What makes that better? Oh, doing it outside:) I love being out in the sun- you just feel warm, with not a care in the world (at the moment)

I am also just a big old fashioned girl at heart, I hate is when a woman acts like she is dumb just go get a guy's attention (so annoying!) or thinks that getting married is just going to solve all her problems. But, I am a sucker for when a guy opens the door for me, and I like to dress so that guys can use their imagination, at least a little bit;) Not quite sure what that makes me...

Life begins at your comfort zone: how true that is. This semester I have not made a whole lot of headway with the whole talking-to-people-even-though-I-don't-wanna thing, but I have made headway on doing scary things. I have become a bit of a junkie for jumping off things?

Bonfires? Yeah, they're awesome. As previously stated, I love being warm and a fire helps out with that :) And, the smell just reminds me of my childhood and of my dad. Every girl has a soft spot in her heart for her daddy right?

Last weekend I went to the lake with some friends and tried jumping off a rope swing for the first time.I am proud to say I did it three times! (It takes a surprisingly lot of strength to hurl your body off a log quickly)  I may or may not have biffed it the first time. I fell off the rope with style and barreled into the lake. The lake was so gorgeous! But it was still really cold- apparently I ran into the lake Baywatch style... major awkward. I wasn't trying out, I promise. Basically I just love being outside. Plain and simple.

THINGS THAT MAKE MOLLY HAPPY:]

• I got a lot of homework done today! Yay for being productive
• Tori burned me the new Maroon 5 CD and, I love it!
• Air conditioning, yep its pretty rad
• I get to go home for July 4th! (best holiday after Christmas, hands down)
• Reading on my kindle I have been trying to watch less tv and read more.
• My legs hurt from running. A good kind of hurt
• I didn't wake up once last night while sleeping!
• I made the guilt free alfredo sauce for dinner and it was freaking fantastic
• The semester countdown has begun! Less than a month

I'm all crafty now

Right now: I am listening to All Time Low. I will forever love them.

I made one of these! Except, I did different quotes ( I don't have my camera handy, so you get the pinterest pictures:) It is super easy, you just get some cheap mugs - make sure they are super clean, its gross to clean it off later. You write on them with sharpie, and then put them in the oven at 350 for 25-30 minutes and voila. Cutesy mug for almost nothing.

So, sometimes I get a bit down on my situation in life. Who doesn't have those crappy days? Well, just remember...

THINGS THAT MAKE MOLLY HAPPY:]

• Going to the lake
• Getting some sun from previously mentioned lake
• Doing things that scare me (like jumping off a rope swing)
• Air conditioning (yeah, it's 91 degrees outside)
• Home teachers that visit every month without fail
• 4 weeks to go! (You can do it Molly... You can do it...)
• Listen to people talk who have real accents
• Friends who make class go by quicker

Overcoming fears

Right Now: I am listening to Sleeping with Sirens

This last week I have done lots of things I am terrified of. So... I felt pretty proud of myself.

Thursday night Michael invited me to go out to the sand dunes and so we all went to St. Anthony. It was super fun (didn't have my ipod, so no pics). We had some a fire going, people were throwing a frisbee and a football around, and we jumped off the edge of the dunes into the sand. Kyle also took me on a three wheeler, (which was the terrifying part of the evening) but so worth it! We also roasted marshmallows and star bursts while we talked about celebrities and later laid in the sand looking at the stars (which you CANNOT see in Rexburg :/).

Friday night comes around and I thinking I will probably stay in and finish my homework, and just finish my homework and watch a movie. Well, I decide to text Nikki (she keeps me sane in Math) and we all went out to the Civil Defense Caves. I love climbing, but it was just a bit scary because it was super dark (duh) and I didn't have a flashlight so... I was kind of winging it. Then we played glow-in-the-dark hide and go seek which I am the champ at:)

Then we built a fire at the Sand Dunes on the way back to Rexburg. I did not participate in building the fire at all, but I was sitting right there next to the fire when a ranger came up to us and told us we built the fire on the wrong side of the road... major awk moment. So, I was pretty scared when he was talking to us (I was afraid someone was going to say something stupid and make him mad). 

But, he said we just had to let it burn out then remove the scar of the fire by the next day... So we turned the music back up and had fun until the fire went out.

Saturday I went cliff jumping in Ririe with Caitlin's apartment. It was a little scary at first, just because the edge wasn't smooth like the bridge at Monkey Rock. But, it wasn't very high, so it balanced out;)

THINGS THAT MAKE MOLLY HAPPY:]

• Skyping with Kate!
• Discovering new music
• The smell of fresh air (The Ivy doesn't let you open your windows, so I relish the opportunities I have)
• TOMS (my most favoritest shoe ever, they are so comfy. I am getting tan line, it looks a little funny)
•  A clean room
• Being able to wear skirts when its bleedin' hot outside 
• Exercising- my legs aren't looking too bad
• Ice cream... I eat a lot of it. I should buy stock in G's Dairy and Nielson's Frozen Custard
• My hair is growing! (hopefully it keeps going...)

I have a job for the 7 week break! And it will give pay 9.50 an hour (2.25 more than I would get paid here in Rexburg) and I will get 90 hours a week! Basically, its just awesome. I am excited to work with those lovely ladies below, and climbing the elevators again (and being able to see all of the tiny towns I am cleaning) and rock climbing after work! (and Red Robins:)

There is just something about washing the campfire smell out of your hair and cleaning sand out of your jeans that makes me smile. Because while I am digging the sand out of my jeans, I remembers how it got there. Like jumping off the edge and landing in the sand. And riding the three wheeler with Kyle and legitimately feeling terrified it was going to tip  over and sitting around the fire roasting mallows. Without fail I think of the Sandlot every time I make a smore.  Oh, and the Capri Suns  were delicious, and they reminded me of my childhood. 

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... Its about learning to dance in the rain :)

sunshine.love.

 happy thoughts:)