Tuesday, July 16, 2013

tonight there was an epic thunder and lightning storm. i stayed in my room and did homework for awhile and talked myself out of going outside. 
finally i went over to apt 2416. they said they would go outside with me! so a big group of us went puddle jumping.  we had a water fight with some of the boys in the ward. 
it was one of those nights you don't forget. 
its spontaneous, and i could feel my smile the whole night. plus i had that embarrassing laugh of mine, its deep in my throat and just comes out really fast. embarrassing, but happens when i am really genuinely laughing or happy :] 

every summer has a story... so whats my story?
water fights, tank tops, toms, shaved ice, late nights, tankinis, ice-cream, the Sand bar, warm air, camp fires, short hair, mud fight, bridge jumping, smores, concerts, chacos, fishing, four-wheeling, pranking, receiving wedding announcements,  reading in the sun, barefoot and shorts, making cookies, tan lines, henna (with my girl Kasey!), Horkley soda runs, Rigby Lake
Feng Shui: balance your yin and yang during Summer. From The Tao of Dana  #summer #love #follow #cute #palm #tree #amazing #pretty #beautiful #summerlove #need #followers #please #follow #me #pink #flowy #beautiful #love #starbucks #good #great #sun #love #tan #shadow

"While we’re young and beautiful living free and easy. Here without a worry, dancing in our bare feet because when the summer’s done we might not be so young and beautiful."
Things that make Molly happy :]
  • watching The Bachelorette with my girls 
  • i got new tires put on
  • new swimming suit
  • getting tan!
  • brothers and sisters who have your back
  • when you give a guy a hug and they have that subtle man smell that is fantastic
  • pranking a supposed master of pranks
  • new shoes
  • shopping with Tay-Tay

Friday, July 12, 2013

the life of a single college student is pretty great

Life has been pretty great. I have a low credit load for the second half of the semester, so I was worried about having a lot of free time and just sleeping. Not a problem. The last few weeks I have been playing outside almost everyday. 
A few weeks ago was our ward activity. Perfect summertime food (watermelon, hamburger and chips), getting unsuspecting people wet, and then mud football. Which turned into just a mud fight. It was so much fun. (I had a white tank top on and a blue shirt...) Jesse and I started a war where we just smashed mud at each other. I am trying to track down the picture of us together, its pretty great. My friend Haley said I look like a wookie, just missing a spot on my face. 



Bishop Jeppson fired up the water truck and blasted us all down with water to try and clean us off. It kind of worked. To the right is me after. 




 Bridge jumping! It took me awhile to get out there this year, but it did not disappoint. We drove out to Fun Farm Bridge near St Anthony and have tons of fun because we were the only ones there. (Dont worry Mom, I didn't jump off the top). 
 My feet/ legs probably think I hate them because they are so chewed up. Bruises and cuts everywhere, I sort of catch my feet on rocks all the time. 










My Sandbar peeps! And partners in crime, I always have a good time with these girls.

Kasey! My good friend who I met in  my Literacy class. What would I do without her? ... fail. I would fail class.

I wasn't kidding about being outside a lot. Also I just haven't taken that bracelet off since I put it on in December. 


 THINGS THAT MAKE MOLLY HAPPY:]

  • Pranking. 
  • Freshly washed blankets
  • My short hair in this hot weather!
  • Italian Sodas
  • I officially have a job for the 7 week break
  • The semester is almost over!



HERE'S MY HEART, O TAKE AND SEAL IT, SEAL IT FOR THY COURTS ABOVE" - Robert Robinson 1758

Currently listening to: Come Thou Fount (the version by Mumford and Sons... its epic)


So I was asked to give a talk in Sacrament meeting on Sunday. I had a lot of people tell me they really appreciated it, and I sort of spent a lot of time on it, so I don't want to just forget it. Its religious, so read at your own preference. 

My name is Molly Thomas and I was asked to speak about remembering the Lord in our daily lives while going through trials. This talk will be taken primarily from personal experiences, along with quotes that I really like. Tools that we can use: Patriarchal blessings, Priesthood blessings, Prayer, Scripture Study,

Tribulation, afflictions, and trials will constantly be with us in our sojourn here in this segment of eternity, just as the Savior said, “In the world ye shall have tribulation.” (John 16:33.) Therefore, the great challenge in this earthly life is not to determine how to escape the afflictions and problems, but rather to carefully prepare ourselves to meet them.


Last Fall I was diagnosed with Ovarian Cancer. It was found at Stage 1 through an emergency appendectomy. If you guys have any questions, feel free to ask later because I am very open about everything. I am a miracle and I know it.  It was a time in my life that I had to grow up quickly; I had a lot of decisions to make on my own. Do I finish the semester, where do I get treated, do I have chemo, what effect with this have on my future, etc.  I was scared for the future, but in my heart of hearts I knew that everything was going to be alright because of something my patriarchal blessing said: “Your life will be spared in a miraculous way as troubling times come. And it will be through your faith and trust in Him that you are doing the right things for the right purpose”

Priesthood Blessings: The night the doctor told me I had cancer I received a blessing from a friend from back home. I don’t often remember exactly what blessings say, but I will never forget what he said in this: “There will come a time when you will no longer fear the future.”  In Oct 1995, President James E Faust said in his talk entititled Priesthood Blessings “ A priesthood blessing is sacred. It can be a holy and inspired statement of our wants and needs. If we are in tune spiritually, we can receive a confirming witness of the truth of the promised blessings. Priesthood blessings can help us in the small and great decisions of our lives. If, through our priesthood blessings, we could perceive only a small part of the person God intends us to be, we would lose our fear and never doubt again.”



Keep a mental tally about the good things that are happening in your life. Yes, you have your trials but there are plenty of good things in the world too. I have to do this frequently otherwise I have problems with just laying in bed all day. One day as I was writing on my blog I decided to write the things that had happened recently in my life that made me happy. And I have kept up with it ever since. It helps me recognize the influence that God has in my life, like the huge progression I have made with my major this semester. And it helps me remember the small things that made me smile, like my cookies turning out just right or sitting in the bathroom late at night laughing at my roommates.

 Recently I bore my testimony on remembering that you are never alone when going through a trial. Today I would like to expound on that because I feel so strongly about this. I found out that my insurance wouldn’t pay for all of my chemo rounds, and I broke down. I sobbed and decided it wasn’t worth it to keep going. I was hitting one problem right after I had just solved one. This time I was going to thousands of dollars of debt, not even for something cool like traveling or a nice car. My sister was standing right next to me when I found out and she helped me come up with a game plan and realize that I did have options, life was not over just because I would need to take out some student loans. God is not going to do something for you that you can do on your own, but He will help you get through the stuff you don’t know how to get through. And He will do it differently each time.

Many people go through the “Why is this happening to me?” phase of a trial. You can go crazy asking yourself these questions.  In response I read a quote by Angel Abrea. In his talk entitled “Patience in Affliction” he says “Into the life of the faithful sister whose son was killed while on a mission came many questions which raced through her mind and those asked by disbelievers, creating doubts, such as, “Why was my son killed if he was a good missionary and an excellent son?” “My son was serving the Lord and was a great example to his brothers who are preparing to go into the mission field. Why?”

Patience in affliction and suffering means answering as she did to all those questions: “I don’t know, nor do I have all the answers, but one thing I do know is that someday, in the Lord’s divine timetable, I shall see my son again and be reunited with him.”

Patience in affliction and suffering describes the life of Christ, the great exemplar. In moments of great suffering and pain which transpired in Gethsemane, He was able to express in fervent prayer, “O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me: nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt” (Matt. 26:39), giving us the example and a frame of reference for a life of obedience and perseverance, despite circumstances or external conditions in which we could find ourselves.
How many times do we conclude our prayers with, “Let this cup pass from me”?
Under circumstances when the symbolic cup might represent sickness, pain, anxiety, unemployment, or the suffering of a loved one, are we able to continue our prayer with, “Nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt”? This very word, this key wordnevertheless, conveys the firm conviction that we are placing everything in the hands of the Lord.
When at times on life’s journey it becomes our lot to travel with the criticism of skeptics, the hate of some, the rejection of others, the impatience of many, or a friend’s betrayal, we must be able to pray in such a manner that an abiding faith and a strong testimony that the Lord will be with us to the end will compel us to say, “Nevertheless, Father, Thy will be done, and with Thy help, in patience I will follow firmly on the path that takes me back to Thee.”


2 Timothy 1:6-7 “For God hath not given the spirit of fear, but of power and of love, and of a sound mind.”
You have trials when you are ready to grow, ready to become more than you are now- Sunday School
It is your reaction to adversity, not the adversity itself that determines how your life story will develop. Dieter F Uchdorf
In his talk “Unleashing the Dormant Soul” Elder F Enzio Busche said “in your life there have to be challenges. They will either bring you closer to God or therefore make you stronger, or they can destroy you. You make the decision of which road you take.”
“God knows better than you what you need. He always attempts to speak to you. Listen, and follow the uncomfortable suggestions that he makes to us- everything will fall into its place.”
“When you are compelled to give up something or when things are dear to you are withdrawn from you, know that this is your lesson to be learned right now. But know also that, as you are learning from this lesson, God wants to give you something better.”

THINGS THAT MAKE MOLLY HAPPY :)
  • I've made tons of new friends in the last month
  • I get to play outside everyday
  • New cookie recipes that turn out
  • My TOMS are about broken in
  • Wearing shorts
  • Cold Diet Coke




Wednesday, June 19, 2013

We've all been broken, so let us make each other new. - We Came As Romans

So, I decided to keep updating the blog even though I don't really have cancer stuff going on anymore..yay me!
A lot of good things have happened in the last week.
I decided to go to Utah last weekend to see Jane and Joe before they move to Texas in a few weeks. We got frozen yogurt more than once, (delicious!) and I played with Sammy, who is so much fun to snuggle with... as long as you have a lint roller after:)
On the way down I got a flat tire, and I had been pulled over for not even 5 minutes and someone pulled over to help me. So then I didn't have to worry about twisting off the lug nuts, which was great.


Okay, I know that it is slightly juvenile of me to put this on my blog, but honestly I think its just really funny. Background info: I went on a date, that could be considered a blind date. Before he showed up on my doorstep to ask me out I had never met him. But I realize that it takes a lot of guts to ask a girl on a date, so I said yes. Anyways, the date did not go well. I did not enjoy myself, I felt we had nothing in common personality-wise and I am already interested in someone else anyways.  And I had to ask for him to take me home. And I kept my hands to myself! About 10 minutes after he dropped me off, he texted me and added me on Facebook. I thought "whoooah Sparky. I'm not interested..." So, no I did not respond. I realize that yes, this was rude but I had other things to deal with, like doctor's appts and going to class. So the date happened Monday night... I woke up Friday morning to this little gem on my facebook homepage. 

So some girl ripped him apart






Everyone else is so mad at him, I'm just amused by the whole situation. And yes, I am juvenile but this whole thing is just so ridiculous. It's like I'm back in high school... 

I tried a new kind of cookie, and it ended up tasting delicious:)

This week I stopped wearing my wig! It is just so hot outside, I decided to go for it. I'm not actually an edgy person, but people on campus think I am! And I received a surprisingly positive reaction from people whih was great!
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This made me laugh so hard! I was going through my DVD's one day and found this gem from high school. We made a rap video for English. So I wore my Dad's shirt, brother's hat and jeans and had a problem trying to get over the barb wire fence.... 

Things that make Molly happy :]
  • I PASSED THE MATH DIAGNOSTIC TEST. It means I don't have to take a 3 credit math class and stay in Rexburg another semester!!. BIG DEAL.
  • 3 days and wig free:)
  • I bought some shorts which is great because it is soooo hot in Rexburg 
  • Snow cones. Delicious, (malibu barbie is my favorite!)
  • My bishopric here at school is awesome. Seriously. 

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

I know That I don’t need a whole lot of anything I just want a little bit of everything




Currently listening to: Keith Urban

Rexburg has been awesome this Spring! I've been swimming, hot tubbing, shooting, muddin', and fishing... Basically all the  cliche' things you do while living in Idaho. Along with getting snow cones, "reading" your textbook on the grass, bridge jumping, Taco Bell, and laying in the hammock across the street. Basically, its just nice to be back in school. A week ago I signed up for my classes in the Fall, and realized I only have 2 more semesters then Student Teaching!! Half excited, half panicked. I kind of like not being a real adult, not having responsibilities to anyone but myself... 

 I took a 4 credit Science class for the first block. It was definitely hard, but Bro McNeil was awesome, and made it worth it. On the last day he lectured he busted out the Magic School Bus, which of course we HAD to take a picture with ( we want to be teachers... there's no other explanation;)  Below is Nikki, one of my best friends that I have met from classes. She is responsible and made me focus in class. 

I had a doctor's apt in IF where I got to see some good friends from work. Julie and Nathan always make me laugh!

 I decided at the last minute to go home for Memorial Weekend, and so I got to spend it with these little goobers.

*** Kate's getting married in 10 days! So happy for you! 
**Beau would have been in this picture, however Beau doesn't believe in smiling. Ever.

 One of many trips to go shooting


 First time fishing! Really fun, and it tasted really good. Too bad I got freakishly sunburnt...

Finally running again, we'll see how long this lasts haha.

 This is my last semester with Ashley as a roommate, and I am wee bit sad about it. 

Quick Cancer Update:
I had a CT scan on Friday, but because of the confusion between doctor's offices, I am still waiting for the results... But I'm not worried! It has a low chance of coming back. However, they did poke me 9 times (not exaggerating) because my veins are all screwed up from chemo. They supposedly will bounce back eventually. At one point they were looking at my neck to poke, and it was super ticklish and weird! And they almost had to give up, but they eventually got it! 
Things that make Molly happy :]
  • Beautiful weather, being outside
  • I am THIS close to wearing just my hair out in public
  • Abby is having a baby boy!!
  • For some odd reason, boys keep asking me on dates... They make nights pretty enjoyable :)
  • Having a reason to wear your fancy perfume
  • I'm officially signed up to take the Praxis Exam in July!
  • country music
  • The whole family will be home for July 4th, its going to be an adventure :)


Wednesday, March 20, 2013

"Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating"- Phillip Phillips

Currently listening to: Phillip Phillips

So a lot of people know me as the miracle girl who survived old lady cancer.Which is understandable, I mean I'm kind of a big deal;) Well, there is a lot more to me than needles and hospital gowns.

So here is a random assortment of facts about yours truly:


  • love Star Wars. When walking in the store, if I see any merchandise with Luke Skywalker I immediately backtrack to stare( i may possibly be wearing a star wars shirt right now)
  • I know Greek yogurt is supposed to be awesome and but I have tried it many times, and I think it is disqusting
  • My favorite TV show is Friends- makes me laugh every time 
  • I am a movie junkie. Comedy, scary, anything. 
  • When I graduate from college I am planning a trip to South East Asia. Thailand, Cambodia, Vietnam  
  • I despise math
  • Laura is my oldest friend. I've known her 20 years and she still talks to me;) #friendsforlife
  • Plaid is comfort to me, so I wear it often
  • Music. Where to start. I listen to everything from Jack Johnson to Macklemore to A Day to Remember to the Eli Young Band. (Just discovered Twenty One Pilots for those interested) You name it, I probably have heard it and like it
  • I love to read.  Percy Jackson series, books by  Sarah Dessen, Harry Potter, The Fault in Our Stars...so many.
  • My favorite color is green
  • I love to laugh and smile, and try to do it often
  • I'm a budding yoga enthusiast 
  • I graduated with 76 classmates 
  • I secretly love that my birthday is on St. Patrick's Day - not a major holiday, but enough to make me feel special :)
  • I love shoes. Everywhere from Vans to Toms to Steve Madden heels. 
  • I like being outside in the summer. Camping, rafting, swimming, pretty much anything 


Things that make Molly happy :]
  • Italian Sodas
  • Back to ol' Rexytown in less than a month! Who knew I'd ever miss that place?
  • Going to Oregon with my old roommate Chelsea! (there's plenty of pics on FB and Instagram)


  •  I crossed getting a henna tattoo off my bucket list, courtesy of Tori


and best of all right now...
I'M 21 AND CANCER FREE !!!!!
 ** Shout out to American Cancer Society for providing me with 2 FREE wigs, something I really appreciate!

Saturday, March 16, 2013

"You could be the greatest. You can be the best. You can be the king kong banging on your chest."- The Script

Currently listening to: The Script
So I am incredibly smart and forgot my password. Result? I don't write for a month. Whoops.

Thanks for all the support everyone! 



Great news, which I am sure most have already heard but I am going to tell you again anyways! Stanley and I broke up! (I may possibly name all my IV's Stanley... it makes hospitals less weird) In other words... I'm done with the whole cancer thing. Its a blip on the radar for my life


I had my last round of chemo on March 4 at Intermountain Medical Center. 



 Everything went really well- except my reaction to the Benadryl.  My doctor told me that I didn't have to take the steroids the last round since I didn't have any side effects while it was pumping through my veins. I was stoked about this because then I didn't get all cray-cray in the middle of the night because my heart was beating a million miles an hour (you have to take the nasty tasting pills 12 and 6 hours before chemo) Because of that, the Benadryl hit me pretty hard. I felt really weird- like I didn't have control over my own body. Of course, I choose this time to go to the bathroom, so the nurses helped me walk to the bathroom because I was acting like a drunk person... It was not a pretty sight. So then I passed out for about 3 hours which was great because chemo might possibly be the most boring thing to do. Its a teeny step above dumping grain trucks in the summer because I get as much pop as I want..and free lunch..


 I felt like a little kid drinking my juice cup, but it was delicious;)
 So during the second round of chemo, some of the chemo leaked into my vein, so I had a hefty bruise on my right hand, and it hurrrrrrt. So I made them poke my left arm this time. The nurse poked the vein in my hand and dug around for a bit... nothing... then I was worried they would poke me again and then BAM. Blood squirts everywhere. Gro-ooossss. So then my IV looked like a "very angry" one. 


Many have asked me what happens next?
Well, I am so glad to say that I am moving on with my life!!!! I am going back to school at BYUI on April 19, I have my schedule made up and am ordering my books next week. (I'm back in Spokane until then, hit me up if you want to do something:) I have an appointment with my Gynecology Oncologist for the end of April and  I have a CT scan scheduled for the beginning of June. My doctor's appointment's every 3 months for the next 2 years. After 2 years I only have to see my doctors every 6 months.


Things that make Molly happy:]

  • Joe took off work to take me to chemo- awesome brother-in-law!
  • A trip to see Oregon with Chelsea lots of pictures to come:)
  • I'm exercising again! Its really weird because I have a numb spot on my leg from surgery that I usully forget is there...Until I am running outside and my skin is cold everywhere except in that one spot. 
  • I'll be 21 tomorrow, pretty stoked! Officially legal for everything =)
  • This video- its my new song on replay