breathe in. breathe out.

For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

2 Timothy 1:7

This post is going to be super quick because I was on campus for 10 hours today and I am really tired but I wanted to let you all know how my appointment with the gynecology oncologist went.

FIRST OFF: I love my doctor to pieces. She explains things really well ( I mean, to the level where a 20 year old college student understood what was going on, not always possible). And she makes the lady exams not as unpleasant, which is a tall order.

I asked Dr. Zompolich if it would be safe enough to push back my surgery to December 6th. She said she felt like that would be okay, so I jumped on that situation. The main reason why I am deciding to hold off on my surgery is because I want to tie up all my loose ends so I could just focus on recovering. I had an uncomfortable recovery for my appendix surgery because I felt I had to rush back to school, so I had a few miserable days of school. I am hoping to not repeat that.

Anyways, I meet with Dr. Cavin on Dec 4 so he can meet me before he helps carve out my insides:) Then on Dec 5 I get to do Pre-Op... Yaaaay... Sometime in the afternoon I will hear what time my surgery will be on Dec 6. 

Sometime on Dec 6 I have surgery- I will have gone my whole life with no surgery (minus the wisdom teeth thing) and then in a matter of six weeks, had my appendix, gallbladder and one of my ovaries removed. Crazy! To think I used to be scared of hospitals and surgery and needles n' stuff! Not anymore:) I have a favorite spoke to get poked and everything.

Aaaanyways, it is expected for me to be in the hospital for 2-3 days. I hope they hook me up with a giant TV like they did last time. FRIENDS and Grey's Anatomy are just so much better on the big screen. And, I hope they give me a water mug again. I figured I would start a collection. Some people collect snow globes or key chains. Me? Hospital mugs. 

Sorry- I lose focus quickly. While Dr. Zompolich is doing my open surgery, she is going to first take out my grapefruit-like tumor thing. Mental image for you: a woman's ovary is about the size of a walnut, and my cyst is approximately a grapefruit. That's gross man...

 

After she gets that thing out of me, then she is going to poke around and see if she can see any other cancer cells. And she is going to take biopsy's of everything. She's need to take some "surface cells" biopsy (aka fatness) and I told her " you just take as much biopsy that you need, in fact you should take enough for two tests..."

When the results come back, then she can determine what stage I am at and if chemo is necessary. And THEN I get to go back home for Christmas!!!

Little Cheesy Religious Moment: 

I know that my Savior loves me and he has a plan for my life. Which is why I am not too worried about the future. What is supposed to happen will. I need to do my part in seeking the best  medical professional possible, and I need to follow their counsel. 

Any sort of pain I have felt (whether it be physical, mental or emotional) He has felt that and then some. Which is difficult for me to process, but I am trying. 

Things that make Molly happy :]

•  Getting lots of things checked off "the list" to do
• My roommates!!!! Ashley, and Chelsey, and Jessica! Bam, I named you all specifically 
• Homemade soup 
• Just renewed my temple recommend!
• Getting new pictures printed and put up on the wall
• My winter coat- baby it's cold outside
• Sleep. Sleep is gooooood.

And with that, I am off to bed! Hasta Manana