Anyways, I ended up getting a priesthood blessing from a friend, and man, it was powerful. I do not remember all of what he said other than to just stay firm in the gospel. But I will never forget that feeling. I literally could feel my heartbeat slow down, my chest and shoulders felt lighter, it was the most incredible feeling.
I then had this super intense conversation with a good friend I just met named Zach. He told me this, and I just love it so much I have to share it :
"and i learned an interesting thing about repentance and forgiveness once. how long does it take forgive?...........by the time you got to this sentence forgiveness could be complete. it takes practice and faith, but it's possible. it's harder to forgive yourself but it's just looking at it as "what's done is done" take care of it with the people you have to, the Lord, the bishop, and that's all you can do. i think my lack of short term memory helps me forgive people fast...but forgiving myself for what i did to others in the past was the hardest, especially when it came down to the choices they made because of what i said and did. but talk to people you affected and tell them you were wrong or whatever, that helps."
This past couple of weeks have been really hard, but they have also been really crucial to the development of my faith and remembering that I need to trust the Savior, my big brother.Everything will be okay!
THINGS TO BE HAPPY ABOUT:]
- my hair is growing long!
- priesthood blessings
- meaningful conversations with people you just met
- prayer
- awesome roommates that are so understanding
- confidence- i got me some!
- finding clothes on sale
- choice- you DO have it
- GREAT ward and FHE brothers, this is going to be a great semester!
- My family loves me :):):)
- working out... i love working out:)
- fresh starts, new beginnings
